Since I have SOOOOOOOOOOOO much going through my head right now, lots of which I can write about and mostly stuff I can't share (sowie), I am going to be my methodical self and jot all of 'em down. It clears my head and gives you something to roll your eyes at. Win-win situation, wouldn't you say?
People today don’t seem to realize that a 22 year old can have more life experience then some 50 year olds. My life isn’t perfect, not even close. I don’t want sympathy, nor do I need anyone to empathize with me. I just don’t want people to assume that I’m some stupid youngster that doesn’t know about the world.
Right now i don’t even know what I have to start writing about and how it would looks like on the whole. I have just started writing things with me a centre.
I put this question hopelessly to everyone I knew, "what would you do if you were me, to prove that you were you?"
All I want is everything , am I asking too much ??
I never thought I'd say this, but Bon Jovi suddenly makes sense. If and when that ever happens to you, that's when you know your life has hit rock bottom.
So I am completely confused and totally clueless about what I want. I am great at taking decisions and can do so even under the most stressful conditions, but when it comes to taking decisions about my own life, I am as confused as a kid with the attention span of a gold fish, let loose in a candy store. I want to do everything, eat everything, go everywhere, drown myself completely in work one day and travel for the next six months with a false passport and under a false name. I want to do everything! Does this lack of commitment make me a guy?
I really wish I could have some expert, with a sort of warrantee card that tells me that THIS is the thing/person best for you and you'll be ecstatically happy with him/it (in case of thing ) and everything will work out just fine, you have my word!
AAAAAAAARRRRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!! HELP!!!!
Finally I decided to write as a list of 100 points as me like Conforming- it’s just one more way.
1. I was born December 11, 1987- at day. I don’t know the specific time and my mom can’t remember. This bothers me immensely.
2. Buying clothes ,accessories gives me a high.
3. I want to visit Rhode Island, Ireland, Prague and Madrid. Most of all I want to go to Las Vegas.
4. My favorite fruit is mango, no wait I like all the fruits ..kind of ... can’t figure out which I like least.
5. “Whoo ha!” (channeling Al Pacino) is my favourite thing to yell when I’m excited about a place or thing ..... or a silent smile at times.
6. I think Jeffry Archer is overrated. Sydney Sheldon is underrated.
7. I want to learn swimming but scared of dying in the water in case if I get tired while swimming.
8. I am not crazy about Justin Beiber
9. I can touch my tongue to nose ...... gives me a pride when I realize that is one of the most impossible things you can’t do with your body. 99.9999% people can’t do that. J
10. Another thing is I can raise my one eye brow at a time.
11. I am good with the dates of incidents that happen. Sometimes it’s too good to flaunt that ....but sometimes it is too bad for me only. L
12. I like Aamir khan over Imran .
13. I believe that “I’m sorry” always sounds better than “I apologize”.
14. When I don’t think I’ve explained myself as clearly as I could have, I bite my lip and shake my head. And that happens more often as I repent that I should have been more aggressive in expression.
15. I’m excellent at talking without saying anything.
16. I like extremely violent weather. Too much cold or rain.
17. I get high with the smell of marker ink .
18. I like the smell of wet soil after rain over any Chanel perfume.
19. I played my recorder at lecture. Because my friend asked me to and I’m cool like that.
20. I like crushed ice, not cubed.
21. I am very bad at: time management, keeping track of my keys and roads and driving a standard.
22. I must always be singing while I drive.
23. My favorite mode of transportation is bike at the back seat .
24. The only thing I like in Ekta Kapoor’s serials is the names of the guys in the lead. Like Ansh, Sarthak etc
25. I once was walking and got hit by a car.
26. Guava juice is my favorite beverage derived from a fruit.
27. I do not believe at love at first sight....... no offence with the people who do believe in that.
28. I believe in karma.
29. I strongly believe that it is better to lose rather than winning by unfair means so I don’t agree with the saying “ All is fair in love and war”
30. Every time I write or go through my blog I think I should have done it through anonymous as I would be able to criticize whosoever I want.
31. I love admiring kids (not the ones who act like devils ), their games , their laughs.
32. Most of the time I end up crying while consoling my Friend who is sad.
33. I like green apples over red ones.
34. I have hidden few things from my bestest friend even though I know that she won’t be judgemental and it makes me feel guilty at times.
35. Sometimes being too rightist makes me guilty.
36. The previews are my favourite part of the movie theatre experience.
37. I believe that songs on the radio come on as direct signs to me.
38. When at the landmark and I see a book I read and loved, I will pull it out on the shelf a little more so it stands out.
39. I like leaving phone messages, but hate the sound of my voice.
40. I get mad when I think that I can’t vote to chose the next Prime Minister.
41. I can’t figure out which is most favourite color. I like different shades , but I prefer white over others when I am even a bit confused.
42. I get irrationally angry when I see rash driving.
43. I’m currently teaching myself French. I’ve mastered ‘hello’ and ‘poutine’. I think I’m set.
44. I regularly think of who would be my “phone a friend” if I ever was on “Who wants to be a millionaire?”- Kaun Banega Crorepati.
45. I cheat at Solitaire.
46. There is something about Enrique that forces me to stare at him.
47. If people were parts of a magic trick, I would be the turn. And I’m happy about that.
48. I like cotton candy. Still
49. I think I am kind of opposite to most of the things what my zodiac profile says I’m.
50. At every next line I keep thinking I would be editing it a lot afterwards.
51. I can’t open my eyes under water.
52. “Later” is my least favorite way of saying goodbye
53. I seldom like the tea made by other people and i always wish that I can teach them so they can make it for me every time.
54. My toothbrush is of some spiral shape but very unique so I am taking longer time to change that.
55. I think the pauses between the serious talks are more meaningful.
56. I think the things which are left unsaid are more truthful than the ones which were uttered out.
57. I do not have driving licence.
58. I love Kajal.
59. I do not like chicken but eat every time hoping that I might like it one day over Veg like my friends.
60. I have actually never went on a “Date”.
61. I failed in Mathematics when i was in 9th grade , though scored 90% everytime after that and it turned out to be my favourite subject in school.
62. I wish I could right in short forms in exams like “ur” in place of “your” etc.
63. I find my friends profession more exciting but they find mine too different.
64. I still believe in miracles after knowing all the chances have fallen out of place.
65. I hate too girly things.
66. I find the character is so “me” while watching the movie.
67. I think Life is too short for “Ifs and Buts” but another moment i think we have got time for the things to do .
68. Sometimes I think I am too expressive at wrong times and too little expressive at right times.
69. I believe that hearing the truth is sometimes gutsier than telling one. As we lie often not to hurt the other person.
70. I get irritated when someone starts blaming me just to hide one’s own faults. And I remain silent wishing that he /she might realize that sooner or later. And feels more irritated when it doesn’t turn out that way which most of the times happens.
71. I spent more time on dreaming about what if I do this than the time spending actually doing that.
72. I get too confused when its the situation of just "yes" or "no" as I find myself hanging between the two.
73. I prefer classics over comedy or masala movies.
74. Being a Sagittarian , I am a die heart romantics. Don't know my sunsign has to do anything with it or i should blame it on the fairy tale movies i see.
75. Tension - I cry , Supertension - I laugh
76. I crib most of the time after shopping - at first that I shouldn't have bought what I did or I should have bought what I didn't.
77. I feel like I am having a multiple disorder problem sometimes :P
78. I am jealous.
79. The best thing i like about emoticans or smileys is as u can actually ignore the thing by a smiley sometimes.
80. I hate myself for not able to say "no " to the favors friends ask and later i regret for that.
81. The nature is defined as either "extrovert" or "introvert" ..... I think i am both.
82. I am scared of spiders and not lizards or rats.
83. I think a 3 year old is much smarter than I was when i was six then.
84. First i think I should get change or try to be "perfect" at few things , then i realize it would be too boring in that case.
85. I like watching very old age couples. Sometimes i think i ll run to help a couple in climbing the stairs , then i think its their own pleasure time when the spouse is offering the hand to his/her "soulmate" and i shouldn't kill the moment.
86. I have the weirdest dreams possible that includes having a female senior of mine in my dream getting bald for the style.
87. I hate people who think that it is their right to crack a joke on others and are too pissed when the clock turns towards them.
88. I have never broken a limb to get a fracture, though close to it i had many.
89. I've never been cool. I kind of go my own way, which is un-cool, apparently.
90. I don't have a type for anything actually. I might love something or someone which I hate in the starting.
91. I always wanted to be in a real haunted house and have to stay the night with a group of my friends.
92. I am a chocoholic.
93. If I were a cartoon character, I'd be Alice from the 'Alice in wonderland' ("Exploring new world everyday")
91. I hate noise waking me up. But still i don't complain after that as it is my problem that i can't sleep in little noise even.
92. I don’t take medication unless I absolutely have to.
93. The only dance I know properly is "salsa" and I am good at it though I am a bad dancer .
94. I think “religion” is rather pointless, but I think I believe in God.
95. I really don't have an accurate life plan. But that's okay , most of the times it doesn't work out anyway.
96. When I was younger, I always thought that I would have an adventure like the ones I read in books. (Okay, I’m still on the look out for adventures…sometimes)
97. The most beautiful thing i have seen is not a palace or something else , it's a new born baby holding my lil finger. My nephew it was .
98. I like Spanish and Italian accent and love Russian accent as I find it very romantic.
99. I wish I could learn sky-diving one day.
100. I hate people getting judgmental , even without knowing the whole situation or the actual truth.
............ufff writing 100 points about myself was actually not an easy task.
